101 Posts

Dear Conscience,

this is my 101st post since I started this self-accountability blog journal. And if you look at the post history, it is patchy. I started with daily writing. Then I skipped some days. Then I had a lull of a couple of months. And here I am now, on a 30-day streak, the longest yet.

This is a practical lesson for me, that I can’t expect things to work out from the first try. And that I should not give up just because it wasn’t smooth. I still have a reminder on my phone to write to you, as I don’t trust yet that this is an ingrained habit. Also, I hope to stay motivated even when this streak is inevitably broken at one point.

This has helped. Improving my whole life for the better is a big task. But it has to start with something. I had so many failed starts over the years, that lead to nothing. I am starting to believe that this was the right kind of start. And a first success in this journey.

I thank my past self for having started, and for having gotten back to it after a pause, and for adjusting the process until it became more helpful. Just this process of getting this one habit right bears so many lessons. About not giving up, about making adjustments, about imperfection, and about persistence.

Sincerely,

B.