Becoming Bakitza

An aspiring bakitza attempting to slowly take control of her journey


Step Into Implementation

Dear Conscience,

I have to think more concretely about implementation of my goals. For example, my current mail goal is to put in 6 billable hours per workday. In theory, this is doable. But somehow, I doesn’t get done. So I need to work out a more concrete plan for those 6 hours.

One thing is starting early enough. I often delay starting, and a lot of my morning falls away. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if by lunchtime, I was already done with 3 of the 6 hours? And I know I have to work on my mornings. I wake up early, but my discipline is practically nonexistent. Again this morning I ended up on my phone in the bathroom instead of washing my hair. OK, it was only half an hour this time, not 2 hours. But still, I am going through the day with my hair unwashed for that reason.

Once I start, like I’m about to after finishing this letter, I tend to open my task manager (Trello currently). And I think here lies part of the problem. There’s so many tasks (that are not work related specifically), and I just want to tick them off. I start on one or two that seem like they will only take 5min, but it takes me in a whole new direction. And after that, my mind is ready for a break, not for starting to work.

So I will try now, instead of opening Trello, to first go ahead with a work task I noted down yesterday, and after putting in some effort towards that, I’ll check around lunchtime which other tasks may need my attention today.

I don’t know if that will bring me all the way to my goal, but it should be a step in the right direction.

Sincerely,

B.



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About Me

I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.

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