Wrong Decision Alert

Dear Conscience,

When there’s so many things to get done, I have a problem with prioritization. I am quite bad at prioritizing to start with, but now it becomes just almost impossible. Everything seems important, I can’t tell what’s more urgent, I can’t tell what will take more or less time, and I just want to rest from everything. But I also know that sometimes I’m filling my day with less important tasks because I’m procrastinating on some of the important ones.

I want to take a walk and forget about it all. I should start on my big task right now, but I feel like I will sink. I fear that going out for a walk is a wrong decision, because I know that if I just start working on it, I’ll start making progress. But I want to go out into the sun, it’s so rare to have sun out these days. And I can only hope that this walk will be my last excuse of the day.

I am accepting a defeat, but I hope that I will use this retreat to come back ready for the battle and still come out on top by the end of the day.

It’s not the right decision, especially knowing that I can’t afford bad decisions these days. But I’m only human. I can’t tell if I’m being too strict or too lax on myself. I’m clearly lost at a time when I think I can’t afford to be lost.

Sincerely,

B.