Space

Dear Conscience,

It is Friday, the day that I want to dedicate to the theme of the Space I inhabit.

What’s up?

I’ve tried to make space a first priority back when I started with this effort. It’s because I had always lived in a mass, and it’s weighed on my quality of life. I had a rosy picture of starting on the other stuff in a beautiful clean space. However, it turned out that without getting my procrastination under control, nothing would get started. And that while I long for a non-messy life, it does not take precedence over my financial, physical and mental health.

What have I done to date?

I’ve finally found an author that addresses cleaning up the mess the way my brain can accept – Dana K. White. I’ve listened to two of her books, one on cleaning and one on decluttering. I’ve tried implementing a little bit, and I do think some minor progress was made. But it’s only a baby step compared to the Herculean task conquering the messiness that follows me wherever I go.

What do I plan to do?

I want to gain control over stuff. I want to have just enough of it, and not be overwhelmed by it. I also want to like the stuff I have, and I want to be able to care for it. I want to feel good in my space and my clothes. I am very far from that, but I hope working gradually towards that goal will take me a long way over time. Ideally, I’d get at least to the “manageability” down. We live in a rental that’s too small for us, but I don’t want to move to a new home and yet again just take my mess with me. I want to learn to manage it here, so that once I hopefully have my home, I know how to handle it.

What will I do today?

Today I want to pack properly, we are traveling, driving to a different place tomorrow only for the weekend, and then flying back home. My mini goal is to pack intentionally, so that I can use the stuff I need over the weekend, without creating a new mess that I then need to completely repack. It would make for a much smoother and enjoyable weekend, that allows time and space for the things it is meant for: connection and inspiration.

Sincerely,

B.