Becoming Bakitza

An aspiring bakitza attempting to slowly take control of her journey


Procrastifear

Dear Conscience,

I am not doing very well. This existential angst comes over me, and it is paralyzing. My recent days of reviewing my core habits was just a feel-good exercise to make me feel like I am in control. But I am not. I am afraid of underperforming at work, and this fear is leading me to ignore work. of course, as a result, I will perform even worse. This needs to stop now. I will open that dreaded folder and start. Science shows that this discomfort should wane as I start working.

Sincerely,
B.



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About Me

I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.

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