Remember Me?

Dear Conscience,

Remember me? I haven’t truly been talking to you for several weeks now. Maybe I’ve checked in here and there, but I haven’t completely revealed myself.

I was hiding because I was sad at first, and later embarrassed. The sadness gave me the excuse to let go, and I let go completely. I fell all the way down to my worst behavior. I am still embarrassed to go into detail, but let me just tell you that my last several days I got hooked back on a show, and decided to binge watch all the way until last season before restarting my life.

On Monday, I spent several hours of my workday just watching the show, calculating that with about 15 hours of the show left, I will finish this week. Fortunately, I had the wisdom to cancel Netflix at the end of the day. The damage is big enough already. It would maybe be irepairable had I gone through with that madness.

Yesterday I got some admin done. Today I will try to work. It is my only way out. And I already ruined the rest of my mouth by falling this much behind. Hopefully without long term consequences.

Sincerely,

B.