finances
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Fear of Pulling the Plunge
Dear Conscience, I am dealing with the unpleasant topic of sorting my finances these days. Only now that I’m faced with the topic directly do I realize the level of my discomfort. I made some progress in terms of taking stock of my savings, and making a plan of moving them out of just sitting Continue reading
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Personal Finance Baby Step: Earn Interest
Dear Conscience, I continued this morning to take some steps around my finances, after taking stock of my checking accounts yesterday. Unfortunately I live in a tricky jurisdiction (a small country with limited options in terms of financial and banking products), so I spent more time than necessary to find out an option to move Continue reading
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Finance Check-In (11P.M.)
Dear Conscience, It is 11pm, my last check-in with you today. I haven’t done great. I did some minor tasks that needed to get done, but I didn’t do any substantial work today. I did take some time to take a step back over the root cause of all this anxiety spiral: my finances. I Continue reading
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4th Rule – Work
Dear Conscience, The second week of 2024 started. After having concluded that my 3 basic rules are somewhat ingrained now, today is when I have to get serious with my 4th rule — work full days on workdays. Today started shaky, it is 11a.m. and I haven’t really started yet. So I won’t spend too Continue reading
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Finances
Dear Conscience, Tuesday is here, and so is the theme of Finances. What’s up? This is probably the most anxiety-inducing topic in recent years. And not because I’m broke (I don’t feel broke in day to day life), but rather because I’m not on a sustainable path towards retirement. I’m turning 40 next year, and Continue reading
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Back to the Catch-Up Game
Dear Conscience, My work trip went fine. It went well actually. I didn’t use the time outside of meetings and conferences to get ahead. But the actual meetings went well despite lack of preparation, so I should be satisfied. I also am satisfied with certain purchases I made. Overall, ok. Though I am exhausted, returning Continue reading
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Unprepared for Battle
Dear Conscience, Today and tomorrow I’m spending all day at a conference. I’m tied and unprepared, and uneasy about having left my daughter with my husband before she completely recovered (though she’s doing better). I’ll try to be present and use the conference well. Not in the right mindset for it, but hopefully I’ll manage Continue reading
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Add a Toddler to Both Sides of the Equation
Dear Conscience, My baby daughter is sick again. After just one week of finishing the antibiotic treatment for her last illness. She’s sleeping on my chest now, I’m exhausted and worried, and all I care about is for her to be well again. This is just as I’m supposed to go for a first work Continue reading
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Easy in Theory, Surprisingly Difficult in Practice
Dear Conscience, Today is a little better. I don’t know that I’ll necessarily manage to put those 6 hours of work in, but I do have a chance of getting closer than on any other day this week. I definitely did not foresee how difficult this would be. It’s been almost two months since I Continue reading
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Where Is My Trendline Pointing to?
Dear Conscience, This morning I caved into my worst urges. I woke up feeling a little hopeless, due to some difficult conversations with my husband about our family’s future. And then then it was easy to fall for the trigger – the news online spoke about a disastrous shooting, showed more footage from a devastating Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 