perseverance
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Is Today Always the Best Day to Start?
Dear Conscience, I am recovering from a late night. Yet another excuse? Probably. I know I should never wait to “feel like it” to start working on my progress. But starting when I feel extra tired and with a headache? Ok, I’ll think about it. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Tending to the Sparrow in My Hand
Dear Conscience, Yesterday I paused all my streaks and habits, except for this one – writing to you. I’m holding on to you, because that’s how I have held on during the previous slumps. Turns out, this is really my only fully integrated core habit. It’s not a surprise. It’s also not just a habit. Continue reading
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Add a Toddler to Both Sides of the Equation
Dear Conscience, My baby daughter is sick again. After just one week of finishing the antibiotic treatment for her last illness. She’s sleeping on my chest now, I’m exhausted and worried, and all I care about is for her to be well again. This is just as I’m supposed to go for a first work Continue reading
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Half a Day, Half a Life.
Dear Conscience, I finally did in the morning what I’ve wanted to implement for a week now. I went and opened my little notebook and wrote down 3 things to accomplish today, before opening my phone. Now, did that translate into a successful day? Not really. I spent a lot of my morning in the Continue reading
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Not Nothing
Dear Conscience, Just checking in, as I don’t have time for anything else. I didn’t get much done today, but also not nothing. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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The Deadline Threat
Dear Conscience, the one thing I’m highly motivated by is the approaching (or usually already passed) deadline. I overdo it, and then I go back to slacking off to recover. These days, I am already so generally deprived of energy and motivation, that even for the deadline crises, I only sum up the amount of Continue reading
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Billable Hours
Dear Conscience, I am still focusing on taking control of Time. But also stepping into the sphere of Perseverance, which includes all those things necessary for a stable life, that I’d rather not do. For example, earning money. I have been working as a freelancer, but due to my general disorganization and lack of time Continue reading
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Permanently Stuck in Backlog
Dear Conscience, I’m delayed on so many things, and all of them seem either burning, or at least weighing on me. So I try to get to a clean slate by clearing this backlog. But it never clears. New things pop up, and somehow this backlog grows more quickly than it shrinks, and I never Continue reading
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Perseverance, yeah right
It’s 2am, I was woken up by my daughter. Abs just as I decided how I shouldn’t look at my phone so I get back to sleep asap, I realized I forgot to post. I broke my streak, and on Perseverance day, of all of them. After a month nearly, when I really thought it’s Continue reading
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Getting Back on Track
Ok, today is the day of perseverance, so a good day to tackle some of the backlog, despite ongoing sleep deprivation. My focus is still on sleep, in a sense that it is non negotiable that I stick with my plan and routine to improve my daughter’s sleep. That currently makes my nights even more Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 