self-help
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Zig-Zagging in Place
Dear Conscience, Yet another setback. They are so frequent these days. I should have done a lot of this work at a time of my life when I depended more just on myself. But that’s spilled milk, and crying over it, or crying over myself in general, won’t help me. I’ve done plenty of that,… Continue reading
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How a Messy Life Messes with You
Dear Conscience, Here’s the problem with me trying to unmess myself: I have messes in so many aspects of my life that as I try to focus on cleaning up one, the other sets me back again. The current example is that a partner I collaborate with is in town, and I’ll host them. But… Continue reading
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The List of To-Dos Until Year End
Dear Conscience, I wrote down nearly everything I need to do been now and Christmas. I always feel a little calmer once it’s on paper. Usually though, it doesn’t necessarily lead to getting all of the things done in a more systematic way. Maybe I somehow expect that the implementation will follow automatically after the… Continue reading
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Catch-up Mode Is Not a Good State of Being
Dear Conscience, I think a part of why it’s easy to keep falling off the rails when trying to get back on track after a crisis, is that, at least in my case, I am in somewhat of a panic mode trying to catch up with many things at once, that don’t together sum up… Continue reading
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Progress Isn’t Linear
Dear Conscience, I don’t know what to tell you except to repeat that progress isn’t linear. I do still have high hopes for my ‘phone as a tool‘ policy. I didn’t follow it strictly enough today. I didn’t let go completely, this is important. But I did spend more time on my phone than what… Continue reading
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Smartphone Is a Time Thief, so I Locked It Up.
Dear Conscience, It is mind-boggling to think and realize how much of this world’s focus, energy and potential is wasted on the smartphone. Not that people didn’t waste time before… But this is on another level. It steals time, and we know this, but we don’t realize how bad it really is. I was actively… Continue reading
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The Plan to Limit My Phone Use
Dear Conscience, I’m still working out the details of how to implement this goal of using my phone as a tool, rather than a passtime. I want my usage to be very limited, but without downgrading my use to a dumb-phone experience. 1. I have some utility apps that are always allowed: maps, email, messing,… Continue reading
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Is Today Always the Best Day to Start?
Dear Conscience, I am recovering from a late night. Yet another excuse? Probably. I know I should never wait to “feel like it” to start working on my progress. But starting when I feel extra tired and with a headache? Ok, I’ll think about it. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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There Is No Such Thing As “Just 5 Minutes”
Dear Conscience, I’m serious about my decision to turn my phone into a tool instead of a passtime. Today, it didn’t fully work yet. I fell into the “let me just check this on Wikipedia for 5 minutes”. And I don’t even know how much time went down the drain after that bad decision… All… Continue reading
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Phone as a Tool, Not a Passtime
Dear Conscience. It’s so easy to fall back into old habits. A disruption like a trip or a disease, seems like a justified temporary excuse to leave all effort and consistency aside. The problem is, once the “excuse” is gone, the old habits are back. Like they never left. Annoying that it doesn’t take 66… Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 