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Sleep Rhythm and Midnight Habits
Dear Conscience, I am rethinking my evening and night planning, so as to take into account my ”sleepiness waves”. Basically I would like to have an evening routine, and my intention is for it to happen after I put my daughter to sleep. However, often I get sleepy and fall asleep together with her. I’ve tried Continue reading
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Getting Trapped in the Yo-Yo Effect
Dear Conscience, I am mentally better, but already seeing how that causes me to relax my discipline. And despite feeling less desperate emotionally, it doesn’t mean that I can automatically afford to relax. It’s a yo-yo effect. I get myself into a bad state, which first causes me to despair. Then it motivates me to Continue reading
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2nd Check-In (11 A.M.)
Dear Conscience, I am in need of a bit more intense support at this time. I had been writing to you once daily to check in, but now as I am trying to move up from my downward spiral, I will try making quick check-ins throughout the day, to have you along with me in Continue reading
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Start With a Plan
Dear Conscience, It is the first day of the week, and the first day of the year. Seems like the ideal time for a start. Though I am tired, jet lagged, with a jet lagged toddler. So I won’t get much done today, but I can plan out the week. This week is a window Continue reading
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Time
Dear Conscience, Kicking the final week of the year off with the Monday theme: TIME. What’s up? This is what most of my focus was over the past 6 months or so. I realized that my inability to use my time well would prevent me from achieving anything else in any sphere of life. What Continue reading
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No Agenda Today.
Dear Conscience, Today I rest. Not by scrolling. That’s not allowed even on a rest day. But simply a day with no agenda. If I get a chance, I’ll unpack. But only if I get to do it slowly, without stress. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Pockets of Time
Dear Conscience, Today was a little better, having started respecting my basic rules again, even while traveling. And I hope to keep it up during the rest of my trip. Here’s what I need to keep in mind, so that my mind doesn’t play a trick on me: If I can’t seize these pockets of Continue reading
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New Beginnings
Dear Conscience, I spoke about my gripe with streaks. And here’s an example of the cruelty. I have been writing to you every day for 116 days. It is my longest streak of anything ever. Yesterday, on day 117, I wrote to you again. But I was in an airplane, so offline, and I saved Continue reading
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Stretching the Canvas
Dear Conscience, When I started writing here, my expectations on where I would be by the time this year of 2023 rolls towards its end were clearly too ambitious. Even though I thought that they were quite tame. I had defined 7 spheres of life to focus on, and I had hoped to tackle at Continue reading
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Setting My 2024 Self Up for Failure
Dear Conscience, It’s so close to the end of the year, that simply not everything I want to get done, can get done. Even if the conditions were ideal. And they are not. One strategy is to delegate things into next year. I’ve already been resorting to that in part. And I do need to Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 