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The Closing Week of the Year
Dear Conscience, How fitting, that I had originally, earlier this year, envisioned my life improvement journey to be based on a weekly system, with each day focusing on one of 7 themes that I thought needed attention in my life. And this year, the last before turning 40, ends exactly on a Sunday, at the Continue reading
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Stairway to 2024
Dear Conscience, What’s done is done. I won’t be home until the New Years. I’ll try to use this time to manage the trip better (for example, unpacking properly instead of living out of a jumbled suitcase mess), use pockets of time to get some things done (to reduce even by a little bit the Continue reading
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Roadblocks Ahead
Dear Conscience, I see another roadblock ahead. So I am panicking. But I should instead prepare. No time to dwell an worry, I’ve done too much of that already. And the only way to limit the damage is to get to work now and be as ready as possible. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Ugh.
Dear Conscience, Today is a day I need to perform well. I need to speak in front of a large audience, and it will be very consequential for my work. I got woken up at 3am and haven’t been able to fall asleep since, so I’m not rested. But I have to just not dwell Continue reading
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Conference Groove
Dear Conscience, I’m at the conference. It’s going better than expected for now. It’s almost midnight, I’m going back to my hotel. No energy left to say much else. Good night! Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Life is a B****
Dear Conscience, No matter my repeated attempts at hopefulness, things just keep piling up that are not under my control. For once, I think I’m making a real effort, and yet I’m falling behind due to life just being a b****. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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It’s Sunday, Slow Down
Dear Conscience, It’s Sunday. Again, my life feels like a failing race to catch up with all urgent to-dos faster than the pace at which they keep piling up. It’s Sunday. I should take it slow. The week ahead is gonna be rough. I have to start thinking (and doing) ahead to have any chance Continue reading
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Framing Time
Dear Conscience, Time is still the bottleneck. It probably is for everybody in a way, as the only truly limited resource. But for us who waste it prodigiously, it becomes the downfall of any other effort in life. I can’t clean my space if I don’t make time for it. I can’t earn money if Continue reading
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Reward System
Dear Conscience, having concluded that I completely lack intrinsic motivation, I need a reward system. Chocolate sounds delicious, but one of my future goals is to reduce sugar intake, so maybe not ideal. I think moments of peace outside maybe. Or, my new brilliant idea — spurts of satisfying curiosity. I’ll send an important set Continue reading
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First steps
Ok, so I really need to get to the very basics. So my first two rules: ———- 1. Don’t bring phone into the bedroom at night. Very important, because without sleep, nothing will get accomplished. And as my sleep is very choppy, sooner or later I ended up browsing. I finally fixed my bedroom clock, Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 