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My only way out…
…is to limit my phone use. Maybe it’s not gonna be fully a way out. But I can’t even crack the door open while this screen is in front of me. Turned the focus mode on. It’s sad that I need tricks due to lack of willpower. Let’s see if it helps. Continue reading
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Semi-success
When the bar is low enough… I got two out of three. Wasn’t able to sleep much at night. But instead of letting it go down the drain from there, I got up early to wash my hair, and made a point to savor moments throughout the day. Better luck with sleep tonight hopefully, as Continue reading
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Weekend is the Way Out
Usually I let them pass by. But a workday won’t cut it. Too much work guilt. It’s been a weird 10 days. I pretended to work, but watched Netflix on my phone or kept refreshing news sites, hoping something so huge was gonna happen in the world, that all my current issues were gonna become Continue reading
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Ready, Setback, Go
Setbacks, setbacks, setbacks. That’s the problem with moving slowly. Setbacks are unavoidable, and if you haven’t made strides in between them, you’ll end up moving backwards. One of the problems of us bad planners and procrastinators, is that we fail to account for setbacks. This trip, I thought two days ago, would provide a nice Continue reading
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Day 1 of Same Old
Was it a new start, like I hoped for yesterday? No, absolutely not. I didn’t even unpack. I did move furniture about to find a more perfect place for my daughter’s crib. But this is just as example of me picking a project over the necessary life maintenance. The crib is in the perfect spot Continue reading
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I’m back. I hope.
Ok. So I needed a mental health break. Not sure if I actually took one, but I definitely stopped writing as there was not much progress to report on. Why might today be a good day to restart? For one, it’s a Sunday. Just in time to regroup before the start of the week. But Continue reading
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Who regrets being messy at their deathbed?
I was going to post an update on my deslobification process today, how it’s my 4th Monday, and time for my 4th daily cleaning habit. However, I was at a funeral today, which always brings deeper emotions about life, mortality, and loved ones left grieving. When it comes to what matters most, at the very Continue reading
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Second day
I guess momentum is what matters. So I’m typing here a second day in a row. Yay. No feeling of accomplishment though until I start doing things. I made my bed this morning. I have my list of 3 to-dos for the day. Let’s go! Continue reading
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Hello
My life is a mess. Will blogging about it on a blog nobody reads help me gain control over my journey towards becoming a satisfied bakitza one day? Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 