accountability
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Accountability to My Own Conscience
Dear Conscience, Another sick day. I did get one thing out of the way that only required an email, even though I didn’t even feel like sending that. But one low effort but important thing out of the way. Otherwise, I need to just keep thinking productively and not continue sliding downwards more than this Continue reading
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Ivy Lee, Rescue Me!
Dear Conscience, I struggle with to-do lists. Not just with checking off the items, but also with writing them down in the first place, referring to them later, or having any consistency at all. I tried simple, with post-it notes that end up creating more desk clutter than help. I tried complicated, with labels, dates, Continue reading
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Habit Review
Dear Conscience, I’m in the process of reinforcing my 3 basic habits. Yesterday I reviewed my Habit#1, which is writing to you daily. This habit is largely ingrained, and doesn’t need much building anymore. But it did need some refining: namely, I had to limit some negative externalities. Specifically, the urge to check the stats Continue reading
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Why Do I Write Here?
Dear Conscience, I have been writing to you daily, and publishing my letters on this blog, since last summer. It is not really blogging, it is more like public journaling. And I definitely experience the widely touted benefits of journaling, the habit has been helpful in my daily life. The question is, why is my Continue reading
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Writing Forces Me to Be Honest to Myself
Dear Conscience, Writing to you really helps in stopping me from lying to myself. Somehow, it’s easier to lie to myself than to lie to you. I had started writing at first on a completely different topic. But as I went on, I realized that I was just trying to pat myself on the back Continue reading
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2nd Check-In (11 A.M.)
Dear Conscience, I am in need of a bit more intense support at this time. I had been writing to you once daily to check in, but now as I am trying to move up from my downward spiral, I will try making quick check-ins throughout the day, to have you along with me in Continue reading
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Still on the Ground Floor of Progress
Dear Conscience, this will be my 99th day in a row that I am writing to you. This is now a habit, performed without need for willpower, without effort. I actually enjoy it. I feel like I need it in my day. Which helps me remember it even on days when the schedule is such Continue reading
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Easy in Theory, Surprisingly Difficult in Practice
Dear Conscience, Today is a little better. I don’t know that I’ll necessarily manage to put those 6 hours of work in, but I do have a chance of getting closer than on any other day this week. I definitely did not foresee how difficult this would be. It’s been almost two months since I Continue reading
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101 Posts
Dear Conscience, this is my 101st post since I started this self-accountability blog journal. And if you look at the post history, it is patchy. I started with daily writing. Then I skipped some days. Then I had a lull of a couple of months. And here I am now, on a 30-day streak, the Continue reading
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Get Started Now.
Dear Conscience, I am writing to you now from my laptop. I just opened it, and my promise last night was that the first thing I would do after opening the laptop, is to write to you. No checking of news, social media, anything. First writing to you, and use this as the momentum to Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 