comfort zone
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Writing Forces Me to Be Honest to Myself
Dear Conscience, Writing to you really helps in stopping me from lying to myself. Somehow, it’s easier to lie to myself than to lie to you. I had started writing at first on a completely different topic. But as I went on, I realized that I was just trying to pat myself on the back Continue reading
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Getting Trapped in the Yo-Yo Effect
Dear Conscience, I am mentally better, but already seeing how that causes me to relax my discipline. And despite feeling less desperate emotionally, it doesn’t mean that I can automatically afford to relax. It’s a yo-yo effect. I get myself into a bad state, which first causes me to despair. Then it motivates me to Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 