denial
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Prioritize and Deliver
Dear Conscience, on the 3rd day of my 4-day plan to avert disaster, I am not where I should be. Doesn’t help that all of this is coinciding with a bout of insomnia. I am not yet pessimistic, but probably because of my unrealistic perception of how little time I actually have left. I think Continue reading
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This Is a Practice in Self-Awareness
Dear Conscience, Writing every day, even on days when I’m not proud of myself, at least helps me to not live in denial. I know the week is almost over. I know that most of the things I wanted to get done aren’t done. Self-awareness won’t save me, but it’s a necessary element in the Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 