failing
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Where Is My Trendline Pointing to?
Dear Conscience, This morning I caved into my worst urges. I woke up feeling a little hopeless, due to some difficult conversations with my husband about our family’s future. And then then it was easy to fall for the trigger – the news online spoke about a disastrous shooting, showed more footage from a devastating Continue reading
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Bad
Dear Conscience, I’m just being plain bad. Soon enough, there won’t be a point to write to you, if it only serves acknowledging that I’m failing at listening to you. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Sick Day
Dear Conscience, What happens after two days of slipping up? I assume that I’ll just be better on the third day due to mounting pressure, and catch up. Instead, I get sick. And I’d much rather not have all these overdue things hanging over my head while sick…. If nothing else, I’m consistent about failing. Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 