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Procrastifear
Dear Conscience, I am not doing very well. This existential angst comes over me, and it is paralyzing. My recent days of reviewing my core habits was just a feel-good exercise to make me feel like I am in control. But I am not. I am afraid of underperforming at work, and this fear is Continue reading
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Fear of Pulling the Plunge
Dear Conscience, I am dealing with the unpleasant topic of sorting my finances these days. Only now that I’m faced with the topic directly do I realize the level of my discomfort. I made some progress in terms of taking stock of my savings, and making a plan of moving them out of just sitting Continue reading
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Stuck in the Tunnel
Dear Conscience, Nothing left to do but start climbing back out of a ditch. Again. And again. And over and over again. I’m calmer today than yesterday. But I seems to have these dips too often, and they make more damage than what I manage to fix in between them. So at moments like this, Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 