finances
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Time + Money
Dear Conscience, Yesterday was a good day. Not perfect, but decent. I dipped my toe into my second big theme after Time, and that’s Finances. Even though it wasn’t a graceful planned dip, but more of a panicky rush to cool off a burn. I think my 2 days of anxiety pushed me into needing Continue reading
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Finance Check-In (11P.M.)
Dear Conscience, It is 11pm, my last check-in with you today. I haven’t done great. I did some minor tasks that needed to get done, but I didn’t do any substantial work today. I did take some time to take a step back over the root cause of all this anxiety spiral: my finances. I Continue reading
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The Lottery Indicator
Dear Conscience, Getting in control over my finances is a huge task. I do need to start small, otherwise it would seem so insurmountable that I would not even start. As noted, my main focus now is to get a steady stream of income by putting in at least 6 billable hours every workday. While Continue reading
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Quickie
Dear Conscience, today is going to be short, because I got to get to work. My goal is to bill 6 hours a day. Yesterday, I had 2. I need to work up to 6. And it has to start now. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Don’t Jump Ahead
Dear Conscience, I have to stop my mind from jumping ahead. Nothing will ever get done if I don’t focus on what’s in front of me. Yes, some planning and vision is needed. But this takes too much of my mindspace, fantasizing about something that’s months or years away (and maybe even not in the Continue reading
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The Time Management Trap
Dear Conscience, Just the right time for me to encounter the work of Oliver Burkeman on time and efficiency. To keep in mind that, while I do need to get more efficient (because believe you me, I’m not one of those people who already is managing their time well, but would like to do more Continue reading
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Time for What?
Dear Conscience, While I am seeing a temporary improvement in the control over my time, my mind goes out to other spheres that are waiting to be tackled. Far from it that my struggles with control over how I spend my time are over. But I am getting a glimpse into a world where I Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 