giving up
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The Trouble with Streaks
Dear Conscience, I have a love-hate relationship with streaks. They can be an easy motivation, and just as easily a motivation killer. I am talking about this today, because today is my 66th day of writing here in a row without breaking the streak. 66 is one of the magic numbers being thrown around in Continue reading
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Intrinsic Motivation
Dear Conscience, it seems that conscience alone is not enough to motivate me, until there’s external repercussions (e.g. disappointing somebody else). And that way, I never prioritize getting my life in order and under control. I just saw a message from a girl from uni who is asking for tips for her friend traveling to Continue reading
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Staying On Course in Changing Winds
Dear Conscience, I’m quite distressed. The situation is changing every day, with my daughter’s health, with work, with family. I have so many short term decisions to make, and so little time to prepare, and yet everything is changing so fast, that any decision is hard and short-lived, and it’s hard to work towards anything. Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 