insomnia
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The Night Formula
Dear Conscience, My 2nd core habit, after writing to you, is that I should stay away from a phone screen at night. Might not seem like a big deal, but I spent many a night awake, scrolling on my phone, feeding my biggest fears: serial killer Wikipedia bios, FOMO-tracking of crypto markets, cases of child Continue reading
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Prioritize and Deliver
Dear Conscience, on the 3rd day of my 4-day plan to avert disaster, I am not where I should be. Doesn’t help that all of this is coinciding with a bout of insomnia. I am not yet pessimistic, but probably because of my unrealistic perception of how little time I actually have left. I think Continue reading
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A Night Fix
Dear Conscience, After a system breakdown like yesterday, I can’t seem to avoid several additional wagons going off rail that maybe could have been kept on track. For example, I was so wired that I couldn’t sleep. And even though I made a good effort for a couple of times to just go to bed Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 