life
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Lost
Dear Conscience, I’ve lost my way a little. It felt like I had stepped onto the right path last week. Then a storm came and wiped that path away. There is no going back to that same path, it simply isn’t there anymore. But I always have a hard time letting go and moving on. Continue reading
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How Many Times Until I Learn?
Dear Conscience, This morning I took the excuse of my client being out of office to take my meeting slowly. It started with wanting to watch the new episode of John Oliver. But it hadn’t come out yet. So instead of just going back to work, I found that Jon Stewart is back on the Continue reading
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Can You Catch Up From Being Chronically Inert for 40 Years?
Dear Conscience, Things are getting complicated. My parents are getting old and frail. My daughter is a toddler who needs constant attention and care. I haven’t secured a career and my life savings are not on track. Everything is coming at once because I didn’t get to things in the right time. I haven’t cared Continue reading
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Stretching the Canvas
Dear Conscience, When I started writing here, my expectations on where I would be by the time this year of 2023 rolls towards its end were clearly too ambitious. Even though I thought that they were quite tame. I had defined 7 spheres of life to focus on, and I had hoped to tackle at Continue reading
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Gloomy
Dear Conscience, I feel heavy today. In part, the weather is gloomy, so maybe that contributes to my heavy mood. But in general, I just sometimes feel that I need to see some progress to remain hopeful that I will get to lead an enjoyable life. I don’t know yet why I seem to not Continue reading
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Half a Day, Half a Life.
Dear Conscience, I finally did in the morning what I’ve wanted to implement for a week now. I went and opened my little notebook and wrote down 3 things to accomplish today, before opening my phone. Now, did that translate into a successful day? Not really. I spent a lot of my morning in the Continue reading
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Time for What?
Dear Conscience, While I am seeing a temporary improvement in the control over my time, my mind goes out to other spheres that are waiting to be tackled. Far from it that my struggles with control over how I spend my time are over. But I am getting a glimpse into a world where I Continue reading
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Dear Conscience…
… I’ve been hiding. But I realize, the only purpose of this free blog that nobody reads, is to act as my conscience. Because someone sometimes could potentially maybe stumble on it, carries a slightly higher accountability level than my paper notebook. And while I much prefer writing with a pen to typing, I really Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 