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Slump Under Review
Dear Conscience,I am yet again, for a gazillionth time, working on digging myself out of a slump. As always, it includes going back to following my 3 basic rules, plowing through a backlog, while balancing the storm of to-dos in front of me. I’ve done this several times now since I started writing to you. Continue reading
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Wrong Convictions
Dear Conscience, Today I had convinced myself that I would win the lottery. I didn’t, of course. I also convinced myself that I might have mouth and throat cancer. I hope this conviction is just as wrong as the one about the lottery. Even though statistically the latter is probably (and unfortunately) more likely than Continue reading
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The Work – Anxiety – Procrastination Puzzle
Dear Conscience, I realized that having to work is causing me anxiety. And this anxiety is what causes me to procrastinate on it. Now that my main current focus is on actually spending my time working, I realize that I procrastinate by daydreaming about winning lottery and not having to work at all. Literally, I Continue reading
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Saved by the Bell Yet Again
Dear Conscience, it is the last day of my 4-day rescue plan for 2023, and it is falling flat. OK, not entirely flat. There’s a slight upward slope. I did get some things done, whereas my past self would have probably today been at the exactly same spot as 4 days ago. I want to Continue reading
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The Lottery Indicator
Dear Conscience, Getting in control over my finances is a huge task. I do need to start small, otherwise it would seem so insurmountable that I would not even start. As noted, my main focus now is to get a steady stream of income by putting in at least 6 billable hours every workday. While Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 