motherhood
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Crawl Out of a Lull
Dear Conscience, It is time to slowly but steadily get out of my lull. But the trick is to do it without putting so much pressure on myself that I break down under it again. Yesterday I did a very basic brain dump of all sorts of to-dos. Today I didn’t look at the list Continue reading
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No Time to Fight Off Disease
Dear Conscience, I haven’t felt healthy in weeks now. O got sick, never fully rested and recovered. Too much running around, and no rest in sight either. Nose still stuffy, throat hurts, cough attacks, headache…. With a toddler who keeps bringing germs from daycare, no paid sick leave, and at most times nobody to jump Continue reading
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Accountability to My Own Conscience
Dear Conscience, Another sick day. I did get one thing out of the way that only required an email, even though I didn’t even feel like sending that. But one low effort but important thing out of the way. Otherwise, I need to just keep thinking productively and not continue sliding downwards more than this Continue reading
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The Flu – a Surprise or an Excuse?
Dear Conscience, My daughter woke up with a high fever, which of course threw any plans for the day right out the window. It is by coincidence that I was just this morning listening to a podcast episode about time boxing, which claimed that life’s surprises such as a child getting sick are in fact Continue reading
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Add a Toddler to Both Sides of the Equation
Dear Conscience, My baby daughter is sick again. After just one week of finishing the antibiotic treatment for her last illness. She’s sleeping on my chest now, I’m exhausted and worried, and all I care about is for her to be well again. This is just as I’m supposed to go for a first work Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 