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Uneasy Slumber
Dear Conscience, Trying to get up, but I can’t find my feet. Maybe if I stop burdening myself with the guilt of inaction, it will become easier to move. Sitting in the park, my daughter sleeping in the stroller, enjoying the breeze. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Get Going
Dear Conscience, Yesterday I started making a plan for the first week of 2024, but I was very tired, so I continued adding To-Dos today. I definitely need to learn planning and prioritizing better, because my lists quickly get too long and overwhelming. I tend to add more quickly than check off, so I permanently Continue reading
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No Agenda Today.
Dear Conscience, Today I rest. Not by scrolling. That’s not allowed even on a rest day. But simply a day with no agenda. If I get a chance, I’ll unpack. But only if I get to do it slowly, without stress. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Sick or Tired
Dear Conscience, I can’t tell if I’m just overtired from not getting much sleep several nights in a row, or if I’m actually getting sick. I hope it’s the former. Either way, I should probably rest. But if you’ve been reading my letters, you know that I don’t have time for resting. I do want Continue reading
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Yet Another Day of “Busy”
Dear Conscience, As you know, I let myself fall pray to procrastination over the weekend. In part because I’m so tired. Some would probably say I need and deserve rest. And that might be true. But the problem is, rest doesn’t decrease my workload, and I always need to make up for it. I don’t Continue reading
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Recuperate
Dear Conscience, Today I recuperate. I rest. I gather my thoughts. I plan a way forward. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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It’s Sunday, Slow Down
Dear Conscience, It’s Sunday. Again, my life feels like a failing race to catch up with all urgent to-dos faster than the pace at which they keep piling up. It’s Sunday. I should take it slow. The week ahead is gonna be rough. I have to start thinking (and doing) ahead to have any chance Continue reading
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Sneaking Rest Into My Day
Today was going to be overly busy either way, but then also things went downhill immediately in the morning, when I realized I dropped the ball on preparing some paperwork for an appointment scheduled for today. Crisis mode, and I managed to keep afloat, though barely, and with increasing my to-do backlog again. Yet, I Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 