self-discipline
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The Cognitive Work – Implementation Intention
Dear Conscience, To improve the likelihood of succeeding in implementing the element number five from my Huberman plan (The Cognitive Work), I want to set out a detailed intention. Sincerely,B. Continue reading
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The Huberman Plan
Dear Conscience, Good morning! It is 7:30 AM, and I am sitting at the only non-smoking cafe in the neighborhood open at this hour. I have started exploring how I might implement elements of the Huberman morning routine into my lifestyle. There we go. I’ve only really implemented number 1 and 2 today. Tomorrow I Continue reading
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A Slight Mind Shift in the Right Direction
Dear Conscience, I am encouraged today by the repetition of a similar pattern as yesterday. Yes, I feel under the weather still. Yes, I have three and a half unwatched seasons of the Crown at my fingertips. I enjoyed the one episode I watched on mute while rocking my daughter to sleep. But I didn’t Continue reading
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Take It Easy but Not Lazy
Dear Conscience, I am taking it easy today. I am still getting over this cold or flu, and I want to use the weekend to recover, in hopes that I don’t carry this sickness over into next week. At the same time, a day taken easy doesn’t have to be a lazy day. My old Continue reading
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No Sick Days for the Disease of Procrastination
Dear Conscience, Today my daughter feels a little better, yet I feel a little worse. But to reiterate my realization from yesterday – I wouldn’t feel this guilty and terrified if I had not procrastinated before, while we were not sick. This black hole of anxiety devouring me, is the fear that this sick leave Continue reading
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Course Correction
Dear Conscience, It is not going well. I have been on the phone with government bureaucracy all morning. I want to cry. I have not done anything that I wanted to do. I have not started the week well. I need to course correct, but I am so irritated and on the burst of crying Continue reading
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The Focus Intention
Dear Conscience, Time-blocking sounds great in theory, but has not been possible for me. I simply never took my calendar entries seriously unless they involve other people. I want to block off 3 hours every workday for focused works. From 9am to noon. I’m doing my best to take it seriously this time. I wrote Continue reading
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Stumbling and Ironing
Dear Conscience, As I stated yesterday, the first week of a habit introduction is crucial, and needs full attention. Yesterday I stumbled, by falling asleep together with my daughter. So I didn’t have any evening routine when I’d usually put my phone away and then handle my to-do list. Sleep is important when I do Continue reading
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A Panicked Brain Seeks Relief
Dear Conscience, The most important thing is to keep a cool head. When I start to panic, I lose rationality. A panicked brain seeks relief. Quick relief is usually the “go-to vice”. Mine is procrastination. I do not benefit from quick relief. I benefit from calm. This should be my mantra. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 