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3 Rules
Dear Conscience, So I’m refreshing a new rule every day. It’s a bit rushed, but since it’s just a refresher, I think it’s ok. 1. Check in with you every day (today is day 7 in a row, yay) 2. Sleep without phone in the bed. So, last night I found a compromise solution between Continue reading
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Refresher
Dear Conscience, I need a refresher on the rules. I’ve been writing to you every day now for 6 days. I haven’t done much else, but hopefully keeping up with this rule number one left me holding on to a thread of hope that I’ll climb back up. The next step is my second rule: Continue reading
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Is This the Rock Bottom?
Probably not, there’s always lower to go. But it’s dire enough that I have to let go of this fantasy how I’ll just keep chugging along with my cute system of self improvement. Not much improved since I started this blog. Some things are worse. I need to get back to basics. I watched the Continue reading
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Time for a Mental Health Break
I am not choosing to do this. I have to. I hope sleep will help. I also hope this is one of those “things get worse before they get better”, rather than this whole ‘project’ being yet another attempt at improving myself that will end up in the recycle bin. I really need this to Continue reading
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Better Sleep Intentions
I am now on the second book in this process of fixing myself. The first one was about organizing my living space (Dana K White: How to Manage Your Home Without Losing Your Mind), and while the work on that is still very much only starting, another issue all of a sudden felt more urgent. Continue reading
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My Body Needs Sleep
If you read my post from yesterday, you know I’m going through a period of serious sleep disruption. I don’t sleep, I intermittently nap. It will take some focus to change this, so this topic has temporarily taken over priority over everything else. Conveniently, today’s topic is body, so I’m very much on theme. My Continue reading
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Hard Line Between Awake Time and Sleep Time
On this Tuesday, when my focus is time, I am faced with having to implement a very basic concept: separate the part of the day when I’m in bed sleeping, and when I’m awake doing things. I am stuck in a very unsustainable dynamic, where my daughter cannot sleep unless she is in physical contact Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 