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Get Going
Dear Conscience, Yesterday I started making a plan for the first week of 2024, but I was very tired, so I continued adding To-Dos today. I definitely need to learn planning and prioritizing better, because my lists quickly get too long and overwhelming. I tend to add more quickly than check off, so I permanently Continue reading
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Sick or Tired
Dear Conscience, I can’t tell if I’m just overtired from not getting much sleep several nights in a row, or if I’m actually getting sick. I hope it’s the former. Either way, I should probably rest. But if you’ve been reading my letters, you know that I don’t have time for resting. I do want Continue reading
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Zig-Zagging in Place
Dear Conscience, Yet another setback. They are so frequent these days. I should have done a lot of this work at a time of my life when I depended more just on myself. But that’s spilled milk, and crying over it, or crying over myself in general, won’t help me. I’ve done plenty of that, Continue reading
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Is Today Always the Best Day to Start?
Dear Conscience, I am recovering from a late night. Yet another excuse? Probably. I know I should never wait to “feel like it” to start working on my progress. But starting when I feel extra tired and with a headache? Ok, I’ll think about it. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Unprepared for Battle
Dear Conscience, Today and tomorrow I’m spending all day at a conference. I’m tied and unprepared, and uneasy about having left my daughter with my husband before she completely recovered (though she’s doing better). I’ll try to be present and use the conference well. Not in the right mindset for it, but hopefully I’ll manage Continue reading
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Extra Slow
Dear Conscience, Today I am tired and sleep deprived, as there was a loud party going on right outside my window until 4am. So I need to rest, but without throwing my rules away due to tiredness as an excuse. I actually need to hold onto them even further. Not scroll my day away. I’m Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 