work
-
Procrastifear
Dear Conscience, I am not doing very well. This existential angst comes over me, and it is paralyzing. My recent days of reviewing my core habits was just a feel-good exercise to make me feel like I am in control. But I am not. I am afraid of underperforming at work, and this fear is Continue reading
-
The Work – Anxiety – Procrastination Puzzle
Dear Conscience, I realized that having to work is causing me anxiety. And this anxiety is what causes me to procrastinate on it. Now that my main current focus is on actually spending my time working, I realize that I procrastinate by daydreaming about winning lottery and not having to work at all. Literally, I Continue reading
-
4th Rule – Work
Dear Conscience, The second week of 2024 started. After having concluded that my 3 basic rules are somewhat ingrained now, today is when I have to get serious with my 4th rule — work full days on workdays. Today started shaky, it is 11a.m. and I haven’t really started yet. So I won’t spend too Continue reading
-
Yet Another Day of “Busy”
Dear Conscience, As you know, I let myself fall pray to procrastination over the weekend. In part because I’m so tired. Some would probably say I need and deserve rest. And that might be true. But the problem is, rest doesn’t decrease my workload, and I always need to make up for it. I don’t Continue reading
-
How a Messy Life Messes with You
Dear Conscience, Here’s the problem with me trying to unmess myself: I have messes in so many aspects of my life that as I try to focus on cleaning up one, the other sets me back again. The current example is that a partner I collaborate with is in town, and I’ll host them. But Continue reading
-
Easy in Theory, Surprisingly Difficult in Practice
Dear Conscience, Today is a little better. I don’t know that I’ll necessarily manage to put those 6 hours of work in, but I do have a chance of getting closer than on any other day this week. I definitely did not foresee how difficult this would be. It’s been almost two months since I Continue reading
-
The Morning Does NOT Define the Day
Dear Conscience, this week has been by a mile better than any of the previous ones. I still haven’t achieved a single day of 6 billable hours, but my average this week has been 4.5 hours a day, which is much better than the average of approximately 2 daily billable hours for the whole past Continue reading
-
Today Should Have Been a Breeze
Dear Conscience, this is getting a little boring, I’m sure, that I just keep writing about the same topic. And it doesn’t seem to be a very complex topic at all – working for at least 6 hours a day. But it has to be my focus until I stop struggling to achieve it. Yesterday Continue reading
-
Not Enough Hours In a Day
Dear Conscience, you know what I realized? That I set myself up for failure. So for a little while now, I’ve been trying to “crack the code” of how to put in 6 billable hours in a workday. This week started a little better than the previous one, I got 4 hours in the first Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 