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Step Into Implementation
Dear Conscience, I have to think more concretely about implementation of my goals. For example, my current mail goal is to put in 6 billable hours per workday. In theory, this is doable. But somehow, I doesn’t get done. So I need to work out a more concrete plan for those 6 hours. One thing Continue reading
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Six-Hour Workdays
Dear Conscience, it’s hard. I always fall into the trap of thinking how once I feel some progress, everything else will go as planned in my little notebook. But no. Every new building block brings with it some resistance, some need for adjustment, some need for pause and reflection. I wanted to up my working Continue reading
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Quickie
Dear Conscience, today is going to be short, because I got to get to work. My goal is to bill 6 hours a day. Yesterday, I had 2. I need to work up to 6. And it has to start now. Sincerely, B. Continue reading
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Half a Day, Half a Life.
Dear Conscience, I finally did in the morning what I’ve wanted to implement for a week now. I went and opened my little notebook and wrote down 3 things to accomplish today, before opening my phone. Now, did that translate into a successful day? Not really. I spent a lot of my morning in the Continue reading
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Billable Hours
Dear Conscience, I am still focusing on taking control of Time. But also stepping into the sphere of Perseverance, which includes all those things necessary for a stable life, that I’d rather not do. For example, earning money. I have been working as a freelancer, but due to my general disorganization and lack of time Continue reading
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Reward System
Dear Conscience, having concluded that I completely lack intrinsic motivation, I need a reward system. Chocolate sounds delicious, but one of my future goals is to reduce sugar intake, so maybe not ideal. I think moments of peace outside maybe. Or, my new brilliant idea — spurts of satisfying curiosity. I’ll send an important set Continue reading
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Time May Be My Ultimate Nemesis
It flies and flies and doesn’t stop, no matter how much I need a break. It should be also my main motivator to act. But threat is not a good motivation for me, it’s just pressure. And I don’t handle pressure graciously. I need to find a friendlier perspective towards time. I know it helps Continue reading
About Me
I got my first nickname when I was 4 years old. It was “bakitza”, which means ‘an old lady’. I’ve always been an old lady on the inside. And as I progress towards being an old lady on the outside too, I want to take control of this journey. To reach the full fledged bakitza level with a peace of mind I always associated with that life stage. I thought it would come on it’s own with age. But now I realize that I have to take control over the mess that my life currently is in order to be a thoroughly satisfied bakitza one day.
Becoming Bakitza 